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2008-01-07T22:35:00.001+08:00

I guess I've moved again,
to LJ.
cause studayy buddayy asked me to try.
So yeah,
and blogger doesnt liek em now:(
so its okay,
I shall go to LJ.

http://www.ba-mbam.livejournal.com/

2008-01-05T00:44:00.000+08:00

Today was alright.
Went for Band:D
met kellsie, kellice all after a looonnnnnngggggg time.
Saw CIKGU!!!
Saw the malay dancers.
Then Naomi, Belinda all.
Zaty!
Yeah,
Then continued helping out the juniors with the sec ones.
Disappointed.
but I know they did their best.
Every problem that happens,
you shouldn't go to the TOES and scold.
Should go to the HEAD.
If the head is some gundu baba samy,
obviously the messages which were passed down all would be wrong!
If you don't understand its okay.
Marion, Jasmine, Nadirah, understand?
Like seriously,
I was super pissed.
ANYWAY,
Yeah.
I kinda missed Kellsie &Kellice.
Anyway going back for band tmr.
then meeting Kells for a short while. (:
CHAO!
Gonna sleep now.
Anyway,
Juniors, you guys played well today.
and to the sec twos,
You guys made me so relieved when I saw all of you taking your own initiatives:D

.

2008-01-02T02:44:00.001+08:00

One fo my fav song by WGB.

2008-01-02T00:57:00.000+08:00

If you fall in love,
Don't tell me.
If someone loves you,
Don't tell me.
If he wants to meet you,
Don't tell me.
Or I'd hate you.
Cause I still ~~love~~ you,
just for no reason.

2007-12-30T16:18:00.000+08:00

FIRSTLY,
I want to say that I love UGLY BETTY!:D

But It's because I love someone in it.

Mark Indelicato :DDDDD

You keep saying he's Gay.

So what,

I'd prefer him being one man.

Hahaa,

Jealous ah,

Later I shall upload the video him singing "Good Morning Baltimore",

Super Adorable. :D

2007-12-27T00:04:00.000+08:00

When it was all in a mess..

And got messier..

I had treasue hunt and founf my specs collection(:

And this! ((((:

now my room is super neat &tidy.mwahaha:D

Woke up when Bidin called.
Tried to sleep back,but couldnt.
Then went to bath to get reaqdy to meet jassy all.
Until my dad shouted to the whoel family....
"SHASHA'S AWAKE SO LETS GET STARTED!!"
I'm like, What?!
Then they started taking plastic bags and stuff.
Imagine how blurr I was.
It was freaking in the MORNING lar!
So I asked them.

me:Mummy,what daddy talking about?

Mummy:*talks with her closed eyes* I have no idea.I think he had a bad dream
or something that he suddenly wanted to clean the house.

me:WHAT?!CLEAN THE HOUSE?!I'm going out!

Mummy:Sorry girl,you have to cancel your plan.
*winks at me when her eyes were still closed*

me:What The!

So I went to the toilet when I got a shock of my morning life okay!

me:KHAIRUL SHAHRIN!WHAT YOU DOING IN MY TOILET!SLEEPING AH?

bro:Shhhh,Don't tell daddy I'm here...I want to sleep...Please kak..
*Then he pouts,thinking I would give in*

me:Okay okay,poor thing...
(silence...3 seconds later)
DADDY!!!ADEK'S HERE!HE DONT WANT TO HELP!!*Laugh like crazy*

dad:KHAIRUL!!!COME HERE NOW!

HAHAHAHA!Super fun to bully my brother lar.
Then my mum cheaterbuck!
Gave the excuse of her feeling giddy,
which was more like,sleepy please.
Hahaa,
So we started cleaning up at 1 plus?
Ended at 8 plus?
Imagine how tired I was.
I dare say I only took 2 breaks in between.
Unlike my brother,
whose room ended was being cleaned up by my parents-___-
Just because he's going to sec school next year.
ANYWAYS,
to show progression that I made after the clean up.
I took some photos.
Toshow off to my granny.
Since she always complain bout me not cleaning up my room at it,
looking like kandang kerbau (buffaloes "hut"?).
Okay,
I think that's it(:

Anyway can't wait for new year celebration with them!
HOTEL 81, okay cai,jas?
Hahaha

2007-12-24T02:17:00.000+08:00

Dear Santa,
I know alot of love sick people,
are saying "all i want for christmas is her/him."
I'm not trying to be one of them.
But all I want for christmas this year,
is to have a clear mind set.
Of what I want,who I need.
(Putting aside all the toys that i want lar(:)
I know I've been naughty,again.
But I'm just a kid,Santa(:
Merry christmas Santa!

2007-12-24T01:58:00.000+08:00

Firstly,
FEVER IS KILLING ME!

Anyway Kiddo is back from Japo.
But she's no more entertaining.
Haha, kidding.
Maybe its not she,who's not entertaining.
But I'm just not entertained?
Okay, what rubbish.
All nonsense due to my STUPID FEVER!
Super sway.
Kiddo went Japo I had high fever.
now that she's back,
I'm down with fever again ):

Anyway today,
putting aside my awful fever,
my day was great.
Went bowling again with my family.
All relatives came.
We conquered the whole place.
Screaminig shouting all over.
Will post pictures another time.
Then you will see my GRANDMOTHER play bowling.
Strike almost all the time.
But the way she throws the ball is af if she's playing marble.
HAHA/
Super cute manzxzz!
My dad?
As usual,
the strikes that he gets.
ARGH!
Haha,
It's suppose to be in the jeans guys!
What happened to me?
My number of strikes is countable.
Unlike them):

Okay okay.
Then,
Went back.
Bath.
Slept.
Now,
Awake?
Stupid flu lar,
make me cannot sleep):

Anyway chuping is flying off tmr to meet her husband,Kibum.
CHUPING!
You don't go overexcited ah!
Confirm darn crazy one.
Then later Kibum won't come you know.
Hahah,
Faster come back lar you.

2007-12-23T12:03:00.000+08:00

No idea when.

My parents. Not bad ah, haha(:

My brother is super cute last time...what happen to him now!ha

My don't know when birthday.

Bilah,Aun,Me and Abil.

2007-12-18T00:36:00.000+08:00

ACHY BREAKY HEART-ALVIN&THE CHIPMUNKS

You can tell the world, you never was my girl,

You can burn my clothes when I am gone.

You can tell your friends, just what a fool I've been,

And laugh and joke about me on the phone.

And you can tell my arms, go back into the farm,

You can tell my feet to hit the floor.

You can tell my lips, or tell my fingertips,

They won't be reaching out for you no more.

Don't tell my heart, my achy breaky heart,

I just don't think he'd understand.

'Cause if you tell my heart, my achy breaky heart,

He might blow up and kill this man.

You can tell your ma,

I moved to Arkansas,

You can tell your dog to bite my leg.

Or tell your brother Clift, his fist can tear my lip,

He never really liked me anyway.

Tell your Aunt Louise, tell anything you please,

A simple written note is not OK.

You can tell my eyes, but watch out for my mind,

It might be walkin' out on me today.

So don't tell my heart, my achy breaky heart,

I just don't think he'd understand.

'Cause if you tell my heart, my achy breaky heart,

He might blow up and kill this man.

2007-12-14T19:55:00.000+08:00

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know
I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

2007-12-14T12:41:00.000+08:00

It was my fault.
I'm sorry.
All cause of my stupid choices.
My blog, regret knowing her.
But now,
She regrets knowing me.
Great.
Since the problem starts here.
The problem with me writing my thoughts too openly.
I shall stop.
I'm sorry, again.

2007-12-14T01:04:00.000+08:00

WHY DOES EVERYBODY THINK I STILL LIKE A OR B?
Must it always be them?
-____________-"
Anyways,
Yes I miss Alfee,
Cause she's my entertainer!
Then now she go overseas I'm not being entertained.
She's a small kiddo,
who won't find her cute? Haha
That's all. (:

I think I'm damn idiot.
Haha,
message all nonsense but all crapping only.
Heee,
Can't believe she fell for it.
Mwahahaa.
Oh ya,

She walked pass me,
WOW! What a beauty...
Then she slowly took a glamorous turn,
BUT WHAT A SHOCK I GOT,
When I got to know its a HE and not a she!

HAHAHA!!!!
Damn funny today!
It really happened!
Man!Where did my taste went!

2007-12-13T04:19:00.000+08:00

She's Gone,
I'm alone.
Faster come back stupid kiddo ):
Enjoy yourself at Japan,
Take care!
Don't fall sick!
):
Byebye
wo bu xi huan ni,
ni chou le ):

Tonight I've fallen,
And I can't get up,
I need your loving hands,
To come and pick me up,
&Every night I miss you,
I can just look up,
And all the stars are holding you,
Tonight.

2007-12-05T23:52:00.000+08:00

I dont know what Im doing,
Thats for sure.
Help me,
Give me your hand.
Pull me up like you used to.
Or am I just too late?
Even if I am,
I'll remember you.

2007-12-02T01:44:00.000+08:00

BAND CAMP AND GRAD NIGHT:D

JUNIORS,

No words could describe,

How important you guys are to me,

We became so close througout all these years,

That subconsciously you became part of me,

Why must life be like this,

As we become close wtih one another,

After everything we went through together,

Now i have to leave,

On the day of Grad night,

tears were just filling up my eyes,

Started being crazy and high,

Didnt want any of you to realise,

Tuba section!

Well known for being high,

How can i just spoil the atmosphere,

Just by giving in to my emotions and cry,

But deeply I cant deny,

I just can't bare to leave,

Leave this beloved juniors of mine,

Leave the strong family bond we've achieved,

Always remember "Once a Tubist Always a tubist",

It goes with you wherever you go,

Even as we leave,

Sharon and I love you guys deeply,

I guess you all should know,

These memories will be kept inside of me,

Nothing can take these away,

Actually it'll make us even stronger than we've been,

I love you guys,

Love you guys deeply,

I WARN YOU AH,

never ever forget sharon and me!

please be mine

2007-12-01T14:38:00.001+08:00

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2007-12-01T14:37:00.001+08:00

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2007-11-25T00:01:00.000+08:00

SECTION COMPETITION '07

Atalia in her "phantom" costume.

Nadhira,supposedly to be a "phantom".

THE BOMBZXZXZ!
TUBA+TROMBONES!

Belle &Sharon repaying back their deprivedness.

Sharon tried to act cool cause,
the toys r us guy "scolded" them for playing!HAHAHA~!

Well today was Amazing.
Sec ones had their first recital.
Seniors had their section competition.
Anyway the last minute work we did was well paid off man.
WOOOO~
I know you all did your best(:
Proud of you guys.
Buttt ah,
Tarzan can shout louder not.
&Iman can dont forget bring in the props not.
Hahaha,
But,
I'm still proud of you guys.
You guys were great.
This also goes to the other sections.
Horns,Doubles,Percussion,Clarinets,Cornets,Flutes.
((:
Looking forward for camp((((((:

Then after band competition,
went to eat with Iman,Belle and Sahidah(did i get correct now?)
Then went to meet Chuping with Bellezxz.
Went Lot1 watched Bratz.
So sadd sei the show): (i think?)
Then went Jurong Point?
TOYS R US!
TOYS TOYS AND MORE TOYYYYSSS!
Played ARCADE!
AT LASSSSSSSSSSSST!
Mwahahaa.
Fun fun.
BUTTTTTTTTTTTTT i hit something while playing.
Then my skin peel off.
Super painful la.
But OBVIOUSLY the games were more important?
Hahaha,
Yeah.
Then went to BPP with Chuping.
Then waited for her bus.
Then Chaoooooooooooo home.
(:

2007-11-23T01:24:00.000+08:00

Drastic Changes? : D

2007-11-23T00:39:00.000+08:00

GROWING UP......

2007-11-22T23:56:00.000+08:00

ANCHORPOINTCRASHERS'S DAY W/O BIDIN&CAI
SUCCESS COOKING DAY

Looks YUCKY, BUTTTTT its di-li-si-os ok((:
Cause made by ME ;D

MILO made by CHUPING! If you think it
looks diluted, Well...Cause it is! Hahah,
But the one she did for Jas was worst.
CAUTION:Do not get tricked by chuping's kindness.
Else you'll die due to her MILO.

SEE! Does this prove tht Chuping is Dangerous?'o'
Despite all the chaos in the kitchen that day,the kitchen was super clean right? :D

2007-11-22T02:13:00.000+08:00

我的心唱首歌给你听
Wo de xin chang shou ge gei ni ting
Let my heart sing a song just for you

歌词是如此的甜蜜
Ge ci shi ru ci de tian mi
The lyrics are blissful

可是我害羞我没有勇气对你说一句我爱你
Ke shi wo hai xiu wo mei you yong qi dui ni shuo yi ju wo ai ni
But I am too shy to say the words ‘I love you

’为什么你还是不言不语
Wei shen me ni hai shi bu yan bu yu
Why have you still not spoken

难道(是)你不懂我的心
Nan dao (shi) ni bu dong wo de xin
No wonder you don’t understand my heart

不管你用什么方式表明
Bu guan ni yong shen me fang shi biao ming
No matter what method you use to make it clear

我会对你说我愿意
Wo hui dui ni shuo wo yuan yi
I will say to you that I am willing

千言万语里
qian yan wan yu li
all the words that can be said

只有一句话能表白我的心
Zhi you yi ju hua neng biao bai wo de xin
Only one phrase can really represent what my heart wants to say

千言万语里
qian yan wan yu li
all the words that can be said

只有一句话就能够让我们相偎相依
Zhi you yi ju hua jiu neng gou rang wo men xiang wei xiang yi
only this phrase is capable of letting us be together

我爱你你是我的茱丽叶
wo ai ni ni shi wo de zhu li ye
I love you for you are my juliet

我愿意变成你的粱山伯
Wo yuan yi bian cheng ni de liang shan bo
I am willing to change into your ‘liang shan bo’ (‘Chinese’ Romeo)

幸福的每一天浪漫的每一夜
Xing fu de mei yi tian, lang man de mei yi ye
happiness each and every day, romantic each & every nigh

t把爱永远不放开
I Love You Ba
ai yong yuan bu fang kai
I love you
Never let love go for I love you

我爱你你是我的罗密欧
Wo ai ni ni shi wo de luo mi ou
I love you for you are my romeo

我愿意变成你的祝英台
Wo yuan yi bian cheng ni de zhu ying tai
I am willing to change into your ‘zhu ying tai’ (‘Chinese’ Juliet)

幸福的每一天浪漫的每一夜
Xing fu de mei yi tian, lang man de mei yi ye
happiness each and every day, romantic each & every night

美丽的爱情祝福着未来
Mei li de ai qing zhu fu zhe wei lai
the beautiful love that we share will bless our future

2007-11-22T01:12:00.000+08:00

Im not trying to be deep or what,
But i cant stand it.
Somehow or another I'll be bothered by this,
Why?
I don't know.
Is this emo-ing?
If yes, Gosh it sucks.
Wonder why some people "emo"s herself to get attention.
-____-"
Anyway,
I.....
Nvm.

OH YAHHHH,
HAPPY BITHDAY CHUUUUUUUPING!
Thanks for always being there for me all these years in St margs.
You're one of my true-est friends.
Even though we have our lame fights,
Hahaha/
MUSHROOM.
CHUUUUPING.
I'll always remember.(:
Hahah.

2007-11-20T20:57:00.000+08:00

TO MS TAI TAI NO.1,

Can you not be so fierce?
Can you talk to me nicely?

Can you not be so dao kia?

Can you not always put the blame of everything on me?(:

Now I no more in school know,

So must be nicer to me,

You better be ah,

Or else no birthday present for you from me,(MUAHAHA)

Anyway stop thinking tht ill critisize your hair,

Cause it looks pretty cute on you(hmmm.),

I mean it looks nice lar incl your new specs man(cooliox),

So cute, so funky just like you(I just had to make it rhyme.so yeah)

haha, (((:

2007-11-19T22:32:00.000+08:00

What's wrong now,fee?
I thought you made up your mind in all?
You told yourself what should be done.
And everything went well.
Now, what?
Felling all crappy again,
For what?
No point,dude.
No point.
You miss her?
She doesnt miss you.
So....
WAKE UP &DONT BE A KNS!
C'mon,
Work's starting &there wont be no time to think bout all these.
YAY!
(:

2007-11-19T10:36:00.000+08:00

Everything that i see now.
Everything that i hear now.
Makes me not want to ask you that question.
Isit better like this?
Bleahhhh,
nvm.

2007-11-18T11:36:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was Oh so fun.
I mean,
Cause its not everyday tht i get to sleepover at someone's house even.
So yeah,
Basically slacked there first.
Then studied.
Then at abt 9 we went out,
Suppose to go out till 11,
But we went back at abt 10.
So we went down to the swimming pool area cause,
wo yao kan "stars" there.
EWWW,CHINA.
haha.
But yeah ended up me and jas went crazy.
Hahah.
We learnt alot of new "meaningful" words.
Hahaha,
Jas: Mushi Mushi
Feefi: Pabo, Saranghaeyo
Jas:Suzuki sei,
Feefi: Suki sushi ichiban toyota seh?

Make sense? DUH NO.
We were super lame to ourselves yesterday la.
Hahahahahah!
Then went back at abt 1 plus?
Then bathed and watch Bee movie for awhile.
Then ZZZzzzzzttttt.

2007-11-17T12:48:00.000+08:00

I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear
Every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you,

2007-11-17T12:46:00.000+08:00

Youre so hot,
that i melted

2007-11-15T12:30:00.000+08:00

Wow, Thats fast.
On how you actually made me an important person in your life.
To not anymore?
Anyway, Im glad our crappy talks yesterday made you smile &laugh(:
Like DOES NOT = must be in relationship
So dont say i dont care.
I still do (:
Alot,yeah.
Any problems,I know you dont rlly open up to people.
But Im here,always yeah.
We still can have crappy talks?
anytime,Everyday's okay for me too.
I knw your not "no status" type of person.
Thats why i said,break up.
But yeah,
You've moved on?
But anyways,
I dont wanna be friends.
I want to be an important &goodgood friend(:
kidding,
Actually its all up to you lar,
I anything.
You can say Goodbye My Lover,
But not Goodbye My Friend,
Cause i still am and will always be(:

2007-11-13T11:28:00.000+08:00

On the truck,which was our hero for the day!

Camwhoring? : D

All of us?

The 'hiking' group for the day? :D

Hey guys,
Yesterday was FAN TAS TIC!
Hahah,
Goat farm all next!
Yay!

One and Only Brudder,HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

2007-11-12T23:29:00.001+08:00

2007-11-11T23:25:00.000+08:00

Firstly i want to say that,

IM HAPPY

Maybe cause,

IM GOING TO VISIT FARMS TOMORROW &

TOMORROW IS BRUDDER'S BIRTHDAY!!

So fun okay!

Going to vist farms to celebrate brudder's birthday.

Anyways, Im happy today.

Really really happy.

Even though im quite unsure whether i should regret telling someone bout stuff,

But oh wells,

Im out of school already anyways.

So yeah,

OH WELLS,

oh ya oh ya,

better sing happy birthday song for brudder,

Here it goes,

COUGHCOUGH

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BRUDDDDDEEERRRR!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,

May all your dreams &wishes come true.

Everything you do,

Im always with you yeah?

this may sound GAY,

I Love You Brudder!(; HAHAHA

2007-11-11T14:45:00.001+08:00

2007-04-06T13:23:00.000+08:00

MOVED!!

http://www.xanga.com/juststayhere

but ill still be blogging here sometimes.
bye my past..
haha./
dots. bye

2007-04-05T21:32:00.000+08:00

you know sometimes i wonder
after im gone form this school
will you be happier
will you even miss me
a ya
anyway in school also you dont notice me
so doesnt even matter actually right
sigh
band graduation dinner/camp
wont even be able to make.
darn.

; eyecandy heals it all.

2007-04-04T22:09:00.000+08:00

you.
when i look at you
i always hope you'd look at me too
when my message tone rings
i always wished its you
when she said all those sweet words
how i wish it was you
but you are you.
and i accept tht.

sometimes i wonder.
i wait for wht ah?
i mean like.
if i wait,
look forward for wht?
nothing.
thts the ans.
but i just cant take my eyes off you.
im sorry.

GORGEOUS,
thats what you are.
BEAUTY,
that what i see.

2007-04-03T18:24:00.000+08:00

i know i very ugly.
my cb not nice lar.
whatever fark.
just say lar ok spammer.
say all you want.
k.
thanks for dropping by anyway.

2007-04-01T23:54:00.000+08:00

wei she me.
everythings so fine.
then...
SNAP!
you changed the mood.

you and her.
contradict ers.
we can never understand you.

2007-04-01T23:16:00.000+08:00

this is wht i wanna do for this month at least

to watch ninja turtle, a show which i grew up watching.
PASS MY BIO, try to break my failing record.
not to waste so much time.
spend more time studying.
go home earlier after school.
GOLD for SYF.
talk to you.

was too busy to even rmb today's april fools. the only person who got to trick me unfortunately was bidin.wht the hell man. scare me. haha. but was funny. anyway,

HAPPY APRIL FOOLS DAY!

2007-03-31T19:25:00.000+08:00

emo mama

2007-03-30T10:44:00.000+08:00

you are the best of friend that i could ever ask for

you never fail to listen to me

you were always there

when im up

or especially when im down

you have been an apple of my dad's eye(haha)

you have always been looked up by me

you always teach me when i have doubts

you were a seriously a true friend

and still is

these five YEARS went pass us

just like that

there were cracks to our friendship

here and there

but if i can rmb clearly

we never really had a major one before

that shows how strong our friendship is

thanks sharon.

for everything.

: )

2007-03-30T10:30:00.000+08:00

okaye.

never blogged recently.

so here i am.

okaye.

firstly ive been sick since like what.

monday?

yeah.

then today couldnt stop shitting.

so was sent home.

now im home with mummy.

cause shes sick too.

oh wells.

and SADLY.

i CANT go for band lar.

goodness.

7 more practices left for me.

anyways.

im gonna miss my section ALOT.

last year Nlevels not so bad.

cause i know ill be back.

but now.

i know for sure im not.

sigh.

7 more practices left for us to work hard.

at the same time,

cherish.

im gonna miss you guys darn much man.

im not trying to mushy or whtever,
but we are alr like a family.
and you guys are part of me.

2007-03-22T21:32:00.000+08:00

today started shaky,
art room.
those who were there.
im sorry for breaking down in fornt of you all.
but yeah.
ended up laughing all the way.
and AMANDA LEE.
hahah.
so funny man.
both of us were th eonly ones who had trouble with our giro form.
then ms nuraini scold.
you dont wish to know what we did.
hahah.
then she say if we dont get it signed by today we cant take Olevels.
like DUH we went off right.
so we went off to Raffles Place to go her mum workplace.
then darn funny.
both of us were like darn hungry pls.
haha.
then we went off to my mum's workplace.
then we bought some fingerfood.(so called)
hahah.
thencab to school.
hahha.
reached like about 4 plus plus?
then went for band.
scared.
then yeah.
finished then went home with jassy&cai.
yeah.
darn funny.
was laughing all the way.
those who made my day today.
you are the only people i need.
thanks for all your advices.
love you guys from the bottom of my heart.

yemen here i come,
and goodbye singapore.

a place ill not see her.
a place ill start anew.
a place ill not be reminded of anything.
a place where i feel comfortable to change.
a place which im waiting impatiently to go.

2007-03-21T22:48:00.000+08:00

after all the breakdown i had today,
my aunt called and asked me to accompany my cous to pasar malam.
i was reluctant.
but i thought to myself,
hey, i needa break.
so i went.
DARN FUNNY!
GOODNESS!
she got scolded from this GUY.
take note hes a GUY.
young one.
you knwo what my cous called him?
REPEATEDLY!
UNCLE!
HAHAHAHAHAH!
then she got scolding.
but only after the FIFTH scolding then she stop calling him UNCLE.
and burst out laughing.
hahah!
then walk walk walk.
suppose to buy like clothes or smth like tht ah.
ended up at smth like a one dollar shop.
THE SNACKS THERE ARE DARN FREAKING CHEAP.
hahha.
buy buy buy buy.
end up dont know how much also.
ha.
im so gonna bring to school tmrow.
hhaha.
then my cous totally has a DEPRIVED CHILDHOOD okaye!
she was looking at BARBIE stuff!
at least i not so bad.
bought power rangers sticker.
hahha.
a ya.
and the journey went on lar.
but ya.
she made me laugh my ass off.
hahaha,
thanks bilah.
she made jas laugh too.
ya,
and talked to nisha online.
thanks nisha for tht too.
madihah is funny.
and yeah.
i guess what you all said was right.
i have to try.
ok.
and thanks al for listening to me.
im sorry if i broke down for the first time in fornt of you.
i knew you were scared.
but i just had to talk to you.
thanks girl.

well look here girl
the show has ended
take a bow now

2007-03-21T20:10:00.000+08:00

i cant take it.
i dont blame you.
i dont blame them.
im just the fucker in this story.
yeah.
i know.
just,
a yah.
im more disappointed in you both.
maybe im the bitch.
but you both are my goodfriends.
but.
ah yah.
fuck it la.
i dont know what else to do.
im not saying i cried just for the sake ok gaining pity.
i dont any of your pity.
cause this is my fault.
for holding on.
when theres nothing.
but i bathed,
more to because of you all.
not her.
im too tired bout her.
really.

i tried to hold these tears back,
but it seems that i just had to let it out.
maybe cause ive had enough.

2007-03-20T23:00:00.000+08:00

girl,
you make me so weak
those eyes.
i swear.
FAINTS.
haha.
like seriously.
please dont say EEEE,
cause its a compliment you know.

2007-03-20T22:27:00.000+08:00

open close open close
wondering if i should start the conversation

today.
you rmb?
i doubt you did.
last year,
this date.
i was on cloud 9+9+9+9+9.
but we didnt even last for a week.
memories memories,
thats whats left for me.
sad,
but still.
at least i have had memories with you.
and thanks for tht.

as the phrase goes,
so near yet so far.

2007-03-19T01:09:00.000+08:00

I can see you clearly
Vividly emblazoned in my mind
And yet you’re so far
Like a distant star
We're only drifting apart, day by day

2007-03-19T00:37:00.000+08:00

let me just summarise today.
everything sucks except for the concert and going home time.
with cai and jassy.
both of you.
i just need both of you to be happy.
seriously.
besides al and joyce and my class.
your the two closest juniors and friend to me.
i just want you both to know tht.

to whoever you may think this refers to.
everything tht i wanna say to you is alr in the letter.
i dont care wht your reaction be.
if thats IT for us even being friends,
i dont think you care anyway what right.
you have your other friends whom you love alot.
you dont need me.
you never did.
right?
to come to think of it,
you never really cared do you.
anyway,
i just want to thank you lar ok.
for everything.
in good ways in bad ways.
two years of waiting.
wow.
oh wells,
you dont care do you.
who am i right?
just a piece of shit waiting desperately for your attention only what.
just fucking little shit.
im just an irritant to you.
just a bugger.
everything i do seems to be wrong.
just everything.
i try so hard to please you.
i try so hard to understand.
but you just dont see all these.
now listen to me,
do what you want.
i wont say i dont care.
i do.
but i wont.
cause it seems tht thats what you want me to do right?
and not to msg you?
not to talk to you?
seriously,
if thats what you want.
ill do it all.
cause thats what YOU want me to do.
cause its all for you.

2007-03-17T23:38:00.000+08:00

i can hear the wind murmuring,
wondering where you've gone.
tried to compose songs,
but it seems that my songs turned mute.
whats happening to me.

sing to me
once again
how you used to
in old days

anyways.
i went to CYCLE!
haha.
just now at ard 8 till like 9 plus plus?
wasnt looking so was like 'hit' by a car?
darn funny.
then the guy said some vulgar words.
i was like oookkk.
'consumed' some bruises.
oh wells.
had nice time cycling.
alone.
with the songs.
wah sei.
not emo wht.
till al called.
then talked till reached home.
yeah.
anyway tomorrow is NUS concert.
cant wait.

2007-03-17T13:58:00.000+08:00

dont wake me up
let me drift into wonderland
cause thats the only place
im able to hold your hand

oh wells.
i didnt go for tuition.
im slcaking now at home.
im darn scared man.
i didnt pass up bio file.
ms poh's gonna scream at my face.
like shit ah.
i dont care bout getting demerit,
but i feel darn bad cause shes darn patient with me alr.
but i went overboard.
shish.
and i rlly had to go yest so cant meet her to explain.
like so shit pls.
darn darn darn.
dont feel like going school on monday.
but how long can i hide from her right.
so im gonna finish up like by monday mans.
i disappoint her enough i guess.
anyways,
tomorrow going for NUS concert.
looking forward in seeing the clarinet.
so cool lar.
ha.
and yar.
alfee,
miss you ABIT.
haha.
: )
but eyecandy also.
HAHA.

2007-03-15T20:20:00.000+08:00

FIRST OF ALL.
WHY IS RAINTREE CALLED RAINtree.
she say its cause the water droplets get stuck on the leaves sooits forever raining.
correct meh.
zzt.
or isit cause it can be a shelter from getting wet under the rain.
fine i shant be random.

i just think we cant really seem to get along?
but im just curious on why isit so.
cause im hating it.
FUCK,
thast the word to describe how im feeling.
FUCK.
its so freaking tiring.
FEEFI WILL FREAKING SHUT UP.

2007-03-14T20:31:00.000+08:00

this question has been on my mind since i saw it in the bus.
as in someone reading papers then i kpo kpo.
then saw the word.
hee.
why is raintree called RAINtree?
isit cause when it rains,
you go under the raintree then you wont get wet?
or isit cause it looks like umbrella?
why ah.

oh wells,
anyway.
YOU.
do you know tht sometimes i just give up.
cause your words sometimes can be super harsh.
you can be so cold.
like as if it wont hurt me like tht you know.
have you thought of how i feel?
seriously you know,
i can still joke ard with you when your darn cold.
but deep inside,
its the opposite if whats shown in the outside.
but somehow or another,
your smile heal it all.

/again i go unnoticed neglected ignored.

2007-03-14T11:32:00.000+08:00

my heart melts
seeing you
my heart sank
cause of what you always do

okaye.
i like JUST woke up.
its alr 1135?
blea.
slept yesterday talked to jassy.
studied the moment i finished bathing.
yesterday's studying was rather more productive.
chem and maths.
DUH maths.
i can not study anythign the whole day but at least have to do two questions of maths.
yea call me weird.
but yeah.
anyway.
yesterday IJ exchange was darn fun.
i miss them.
sigh.
but yeah meeting on saturday.
woohoo.
: )

hey,
stop blaming me for being emotional can?
maybe its just me.
and i am deep.
and i think alot.
just leave me being me can?!

you know wht i feel like doing now?
just sit down and stare.
just stone.
just drift to imagination.
just like how i always do everynight.

2007-03-11T22:59:00.000+08:00

i was thinking to myself.
not only for myself.
for jas.
maybe for joyce.
but not so much lar.
its like.
we think of them.
like ALMOST 247.
they dont even think of us lar pls.
its like okaye lar.
if got think also,
think for like few seconds?
few minutes?
sigh.
maybe its just the way it is lar.

then i was at her blog just now.
its like.
EVERYTHING her friend here.
her friend there.
her husband here.
her dog there.
EVVERYTHING.
AND ANYTHING.
BUT.
NOTHING bout me.
yeah.
shes not a loud hailer.
i know i know.
chillix man!
ha.
but im just wondering lar.
is it in her mind,
got NOTHING bout me?
isit her whole day,
there not even minute to spare to even THINK of me?
darn.
i dont know lar.
and her blog is forever happy.
mine is forveer EMO.
what is this manzzz.
ANYWAY,
im complaining cause...
i adnik ssim reh?
OH WELLS.

2007-03-10T20:00:00.000+08:00

RUGBY IS LIFE.

DARN!

IN LOVE WITH IT.

I WANNA PLAY RUGBY!

ANYONE?

anyway.

got into fight with some custards at my house.

dont wanna talk bout it.

but fish it.

spoilt my day.

then scold wo de pen you anyhow.

zzt!

sorry.

didnt mean it yeah?

2007-03-10T12:52:00.000+08:00

if only this world has no restrictions
no book no law
but we cant deny that there is
but theres nothing i can do anymore

cause i went too deep
and feelings went too strong

yoyo.
but i like the way it is now.
boys school coming for exchange.
clinch fist.
crack my bones.
haha JASSY!
nvmd.
trust.
trust jas.

2007-03-09T21:25:00.000+08:00

im happy.
im happy.
im happy.
cause shes crazy.
shes crazy.
shes crazy.
she made my day-ee.
day-ee.
day-ee.
im insane now cant you see.
cant you see.

HAHAHAHA.
zzt!
im HIGGGGHHHH.
didnt take my medicine.
haha.
bye.

2007-03-08T21:30:00.000+08:00

my heads spinning
everythings becoming irritating
i really cant find my way
or what the hack im thinking

what am i going for
after all these one year plus
how long can i hold on more
how long will it last

you told me off
so easily maybe without realising
it made my heart sank
but i know your not joking

its not with me whom you want to be
its not me who can keep you happy
but all i want you to do
is to feel my sincerity

i never expect for a reply
i dont expect for a karma(good way)
whatever i do is all just for you
even though without doing anything also i kena

i hope even though if you dont want ANYTHING t do with it
you would allow me to enjoy these time left with you
even though thats not what youve been doing
but whatever i try to do
it still come back to you.

im thinking of myself.
has she ever felt touched?
has she ever gone,"oh so sweet."
has she ever find my words assuring?
anything.
doubt it anyway.
stupid,
fee your such a loser.

2007-03-08T21:18:00.000+08:00

I WANT THIS DOUBLE DECKER BED. bleah!
JOYCEY AT MY HOUSE.
STUDYING AT ANOTHER SIDE OF THE TABLE.WHICH BELONGED TO HER THOSE DAYS.
CUTE RIGHTZXZXZXZ! HAHA! FUNNY FUNNY MANS!
I KNOW I LOOK DARN UGLY. BUT HEY! WHO CARES. BETTER THAN BEING THE MASCOT. HAHAHA.

2007-03-08T17:28:00.000+08:00

bite my tongue
to hold these tears
clinch my fist
to hold the anger
confusions fill my mind
my life's turning absurb.

anyway,
today was sports day.
even thoguh fearon lost,
and we were quite disappointed,
i really really enjoyed my last sports day with st margs.
seriously.
all the cheers.
with my friends.
those who were my foes became my friend for today.
haha.
but yeah.
and bout being the mascot.
ok dont say lar.
so malu.
MRS KWOK bully me!
goodness.
haha.
ask my tie hair not enough.
then she came with a RED RIBBON.
haha.
then shes like.
so cuuuteee, girl girl...kawaii pose!
hahahahahah!
MRS KWOK le!
hahaha!
yeah yeah.
then went out with cai jassy gerald and bridget.
but dont know wht happen end up with the three of us again.
BUT,
yeah.
had fun.
went to jassy house.
then watched movie and ate KFC.
BUT,
i slept.
hee.
i snored. (oops.)
a yar.
too tired lar.
haha.
waited for that girl to come.
but she rmb she got tuition.
so she didnt come.
yeah.
then i slept back.
haha.
how piggy can i be.
now going off to queensway.
cai wanna shop.
so yeah.
bye.

what am i doing now.
i have no clue.
darn it.

2007-03-04T14:39:00.000+08:00

아기,
dont shed a tear,
cause ill love you,
like no one ever did.

2007-03-04T14:31:00.000+08:00

Take a photograph,
It'll be the last,
Not a dollar or a crowd could ever keep me here,

I don't have a past
I just have a chance,
Not a family or honest plea remains to say,

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

Is it you I want,
Or just the notion
Of a heart to wrap around so I can find my way around

Safe to say from here,
Your getting closer now,
We are never sad cause we are not allowed to be

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

To lie here under you,
Is all that I could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,
To lie here under you is all that i could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun

2007-03-03T21:10:00.000+08:00

those tears you cry,
ill wipe.
those neglections you felt,
ill erase.
those hurt you got,
ill heal.
those times i wasnt there,
ill replace.
those rejections you got,
ill return.
everything you need,
ill do it for you.
araso 아기?
: )

all the hurt ive got,
i know you'll heal it all.

2007-03-03T15:35:00.000+08:00

sarangheyo, means i love you.

私は愛する
and
あしくる,
al teach me.

talking to sharon.
shes like so crazy over dont know who called june also.
haha.
siao ding dong.
then chatting with alfee.
alfee say im smart!
yes i am.
no need to say actually.
i alr am.

나는 너를 놓친다 ,
means i miss you.
나는 너를 사랑한다,
means i love you.
(so long then meaning so short.weird.haha.dots.OH WELLS,)

2007-03-02T21:07:00.000+08:00

you answered me.
short and simple.
oh wells,
after you said tht.
all my questions answered then.
a yar.
i dont know how to feel also.
a yar.
one year plus.
near to two years.
a yar.
i also dont expect a relationship.
never did.
since the last time.
too afraid i guess.
but a yar.
dont know lar.

ANYWAYS,
today was not bad.
yeah.
: )

/eyecandy heals it all : )

2007-03-01T20:55:00.000+08:00

isit POLLY or TOLLEY put the kettle on.
then SUSAN take it out again right?
goodness.
wht deprived childhood i have.
haha

2007-03-01T20:47:00.001+08:00

today was HELL fun.
haha.
went out with cai and jassy.
as usual.
but today so funny.
cant rmb wht we exactly did.
but i know it was fun.
haha.
yeah.
my class was also darn funny today.
even teachers.
MISS POH lar.
haha.
imitate jimin.
hahaha!
laugh non stop for goodness.
anyway yeah.
thats all i guess.

everything's fine.
i guess.

you have time for
everybody,
anything,
but not for me.

but nevermind.
forget it.
i wont let it spoil my day.

2007-02-27T13:46:00.000+08:00

hello.
here i am in lab.
ms tay not here.
so yeah.
too bored.
so played solitaire all.
with sara.
haha.
darn funny pls.
msging alfee.
dont know if i should pon religious class.
then study at home.
i really feel stuidious thi\ese few days.
really.
bleah.
okaye.
thats all.
bye bye.

2007-02-25T23:23:00.000+08:00

sorr if it was mushy mans.
anyway.
im bored.
gosh.
i need MILO.
i want school badly!
cause of MILO!
: (

its good for your health okaye.
who say it isnt.
it gives me ENERGY!
yeah!
haha.
okaye how random can i get.
bye.
night

2007-02-25T16:50:00.000+08:00

just watched happy feet again.
then i said to jas,
if only you asked what i would do for you,
my answer would be.
i would catch the fish from the HAWK just like how he did!
then jas laugh.
haha.
but i meant it.
: )

im sorry for all the pressure you've got from me.
or them.
anything.
im sorry for eveything.
im sorry for doing what i did.
im sorry.
even tht time i went out with __,
everything we did,
made me think of you.
made me miss you.
everything.

;cant stop pretending,
nothing can make me stop my strong feelings for you.

those tears you cried,
how i wish i could wipe it for you.
those times you bite your lips to stop yourself from tearing,
and you told me,
i felt the pain.
how i wsh i was there.
you say im not there when you cry,
i am.
i always were.
but do me a fav,
and let me be there.
how can i be there when you dont want to open up to me.

vday.
the card i made.
everything.
how i cracked my brain.
on how to make you happy.
and make you ahve one of the best gifts on vday.
i waited waited for your msg.
a thank you at least.
2 hours.
4 hours.
at last 1 oclock,
you msged.
thanks for the plastic bag,
now i can fit all my 100 gifts.
wah!
plastic bag,
i can get you how many you want also,
for FREE!
wah sei.
really not mean wht.
but nvmd,
i know wht you meant.

your just unique,
in all ways.

nothing can erase wht have had happened.
but hope everything will start afresh.

:)
girl,i promise you,
my feelings are so strong.

2007-02-21T18:14:00.000+08:00

confusion kills.

anyway.
to you.
im sorry if ive neglected you.
but things that has been happening between made me confused.
i dont wanna talk bout it.
anyway,
its still you.
that i want.

alfee,
thanks a million.
for making me feel needed.
loved.
cared.
all thanks to you.
im sorry if im mean towards you.
but i love you.
alot.
: )
alrights?
so dont always cry lurr.
okaye>?
a ra so?
haha.

2007-02-14T23:19:00.000+08:00

i cant so describe
how im feeling deep inside
so much more than i can say
with your touch it feels so right
oh my your so near
all the time in this place
for i know in my heart
i will never let you go

cause when i
trying so hard not to look in your eyes
maybe i
have fallen in love you

long long ago song.
haha.
eileen.

2007-02-14T22:58:00.000+08:00

valentines went well.
watched EPIC movie.
nonsense show.
but funny.
went with sharon jas cai and al.
yeah guess thats all.

shit man.
you tell me.
i know you should know.
in the cinema.
what happened to us.
why did i feel so comfortable having you by my side.
why do i feel like as if we are together.
why did i get trapped in the comfort.
god dammit why!
i know im NOT suppose to say this.
but with you practically sitting next to me,
without realising your hand touches.
instead of feeling EEEE,
i was comfortable.
am i thinking too much.
i swear i never did seee this coming.
oh wells,
maybe its cause your my valentine,
that made me feel tht way.
maybe.
did you feel the same?
you said you did.
but isit true.
if it is,
why are we feeling that way.
i love her.
but now.
shit.

2007-02-04T22:41:00.000+08:00

conclusion for today,

SINGAPORE WON THE CUP!
LIKE DUH!
SO MUCH TENSION!
BUT YEAH,
WORTH IT.
AND ALAM SHAH LIKE SO TOTALLY ROCKS PLS.
HAHA.

bbye(:

2007-02-04T01:19:00.000+08:00

2007-02-04T00:37:00.000+08:00

i wont be like others who LIE.
totally LIE all the way.

"i will wait for you forever!"(DUH not forever!)
"your in my mind 24/7"(well, for me only 21/7.hee:) )
"its you whose always on my mind"(well,not exactly.but most of the time.yeah)

i cant deny the facts.
this is wrong.
and OBVIOUSLY it wont be a forever thing.
but,
let me tell you something which is NOT a lie.

my feelings.

is this love?
whats love?
i know this is wrong path.
its wrong in the book.
BUT,
i know its not only "like".
i dont know what your gonna call it.
but its not a lie.

my feelings are sincere,
my feelings are true,
ive never been so serious to someone,
except you.

i cant deny that i do want to be with you.
but at the same time i dont.
i dont know why.
maybe cause of the past.
i dont know.
but this valentine,
even if your not coming.
ill be quite down.
but i wont be like shocked or smth.
cause i got it last year.
i waited, waited waited.
end up you had project.
but end up you went....
okaye nvmd.
im being petty, maybe.
but yeah.
what im trying to say is,
i dont lie bout my feelings.

i wasnt born to tell you i love you
but i....

do.

2007-02-02T21:29:00.000+08:00

well.
just got scolding from my grandmother.
well shouldnt rub into it.
BUT, sigh.
seriously its not my fault.
my parents know im going home late.
ANYWAYS,
nothing much today i guess.
but yeah.
todays assembly was darn funny!
hahah.
me and sidd laugh like shit pls!
hahah.
should say why.
hhaa.
then then then.
got band.
so on so on.
then went dinner with cai jassy glo mich sharon bidin.
yeah.
as usual lor.
then like tht.
erm i guess thats all.

im sorry if i didnt really talk.
but i scared whatever i say makes you angry.
yeah.

2007-02-01T21:42:00.000+08:00

GAYS UNITE!
my brother bought for me. cute right. haha
the first thing i saw in class,was my TABLE!
my clique design. haha.
can you see the container at the side?
:l gave me! YUMMY MANS!

tsk tsk! haha.
my second birthday cake! yay!
thanks once again :l! : )

ONE of my suprise gifts form :l.

as unique as i expected. so yeah.haha.
once again, my TABLE! : )
from cass and sidd! love them!

i guess thats all that i ahve form my brithday.
yeah.
thanks to all those who gave me presnets and suprises.
ill never forget that day ever.
thanks.

2007-02-01T21:22:00.000+08:00

why do i feel as if the whole worlds crashing onto me
why do i feel as if no ones needing me
why do i prioritise their happiness before mine
how can i be so silly

they just dont see what i do for them
they just know how to order me
they never care what ive been dying to say
if ever i open my mouth, they all will be darn angry

HELLO, how selfish can you all be
never fail to find the smallest mistakes that i do
but never really care bout what you did wrong
or all the 'giving in' that ive done for all of you

what exactly do you want me to do
how contradicting can you get
whether i do what you want or i dont
end up you will still get mad!

im trying so hard here just to make you happy
but i guess i fail to do that simple thing
you actually even find me irritating

i guess i shouldstop doing what ive been doing
and juststop bothering you
maybe thats the only way to make you happy
maybe thats what youve been wanting me to do.

sigh.
ive nothing to say.
but your so contradicting.
that i dont know which part of what you say, i should do.
i talk to you,wrong.
i never talk, wrong.
HELLO.
then wht you want me to do.
im tired okaye.
thats why when i see you ill just keep quiet.
but,
a yar.
i miss you lar

pls always dont always get angry.
im tired of it lar.
i knw its my fault.
but,
a yar.
nvmd.

2007-02-01T00:31:00.000+08:00

i guess i should just shutup,
since whtever i say angers people.
whtever is just crap.
since its so annoying and disgusting.
fine,
shutting up is the only way,
to please you all right?
then ill do it.
have you all wonder how i feel?
you all bossing me around.
me just listening to all you angers and stuff.
letting you vent it on me.
me listening to your complaints patiently.
as long as you will be happy.
but have you all really thought of how i feel>
putting others happiness first.
if you dont know then let me tell you.
ITSUCKS!
GET IT?!
IT SUCKS!
forget it lar.
yar.
my fault my fault.
it has always been and will always be right?

im sorry to annoy YOU.
its really unintentional.
you dont want me to talk bout all those?
i wont.
but dont be angry.
if im irritating, tell me.
so i know.
but if you keep quiet and continue being annoyed,
that will start a fight.
and im isck og fighting with you.
cause i dont want to.
i just want to be happy with you.
get it?

2007-01-30T21:57:00.000+08:00

having doubts bout you.
i know im thinking too much.
but all these is just cause,
i care.
i dont show.
but,
i do.

/never ending madness over you.

2007-01-26T23:25:00.000+08:00

me and chu.
buddies unite.SOTONGS
thanks sidd and cass!love you'll alot!

jassy and me chu's bad photographing skills.
jassy and me again.
jassy sharon me.
sharon take one.RANDOM

i wanna thank my clique!love you guys!

whtever you'll did for me today!

thanks a million!ill never forget tday!

thanks for the suprise.

and for the person who the food!

its NICE. thanks for your effort.

: )

this is my table. haha. nice right!
cai and sharon???haha
CHUPING.TSKTSK.WHT YOU DOING.
us again.

okaye.

today if i were to say wht happened,

it'll be LONG...

so i lazy.

DUH.

just wanna thank my clique!

for all their suprises!

thanks alot!

love you guys!

wht can school be like without you guys.

and to my classmates!

thanks for being 5/2!

haha.

and to sharon, jassy, bidin and cai,

thanks too!

to alfee,

thanks for the tamagutchi.

to you,

your gifts were unique and unpredictable as i expected.

thank you.

thanks for spending time for me.

im touched.

sorry if things didnt go right tht time.

how i wish i didnt do wht i did.

my birthday wish would have come true.

sighh.

ANYWAY,

im seventeen now.

SO OLD!

sighh.

okayes.

gotta go alr.

bye.

PS i sprained my knee and toe,

you care,

dont know.

sigh.

happy birthday to me : )

/never ending madness over you

2007-01-22T18:01:00.001+08:00

these are some of the pathetic photos i took of
alfee and with alfee. haha. long time never
go home with her alr.so today she say wait for me, so
went home with her lor.

alFEE and FEE.

retarded right? HAHA
tsktsk. look at other people.

she has a crush on tht guy.haha.

NO idea wht she was doing.

stupid face!haha : )
HAHAH!

today was rather a fun day.
RECESS.
darn fun.
haha.
alex brought food.
sardines with bread.
then HAM.
not halal.
OH OH OH!
with mayo also.YUMMM!
then after we ate.
they all rushed to the basin to wash their hands.
then i was like huh?
then all of them were like if we dont wash we cant touch you.
HAHA!
darn funny.
then i was like if you wash hands means you halal alr lar!
haha.
then joyce was like NO,our stomache not halal.
OMG.LAUGH LIKE SHIT PLS.
and piggyback lauwisa nearly the whole day today.
haha.
then ENGLISH was RATHER fun.
ms nuraini asked me to read the whole friendship story okaye to the class!
not tired whats.
then some words i accidentally pronounce right.
they all laugh at me k.
so malu!
then LUNCH!
like tht lor.
then test!
WHAT RUBBISH LAR.
THE SIGN??!!?
HALO!!
then my class was like i think got typo error on the question.
hahah!
then worst.
jimin was like why not COSINE.
at least can talk bout maths.
then joyce, why not THE SIGH.
at least can emo emo.
hahahah!
so funny.
after test met alfee.
then yar.
went home with her.
HELLO ALFEE LAW.
suddenly just now my shoulder felt heavy okaye!
then open eyes,
it was YOUR HEAD.
wah sia!
i was too tired to bother.
hahah, then went back to sleep.
yar.
okaye i gues thats all.
sorry cai jasmine.
its been a long time since i went home with al.
and this is the only time.
yeah.
sorry : (
next time k.
: )

2007-01-22T18:01:00.000+08:00

these are some of the pathetic photos i took of
alfee and with alfee. haha. long time never
go home with her alr.so today she say wait for me, so
went home with her lor.

alFEE and FEE.

retarded right? HAHA
tsktsk. look at other people.

she has a crush on tht guy.haha.

NO idea wht she was doing.

stupid face!haha : )
HAHAH!

2007-01-21T12:29:00.000+08:00

is she pretty or is she PRETTAYE. haha

2007-01-21T12:21:00.000+08:00

i was blog-hopping,
friendster hopping.
stuff like tht ah.
i rlly rlly salute those of them who get who they want.
be with them.
have happy times.
you know?
brother and me talked bout it before.
how we wish.
just how we wish.
its like tht.
but yeah,
im okaye with wht i have now.
my friends,
they are all i need.

2007-01-19T21:12:00.000+08:00

its like not tht i dont care.
i mean im not good at showing.
and also.
i dont wanna disturb you.
you say you bad mood.
i worried.
i care.
but i scared if i keep chatting to you.
or msg you,
you'll be like"wah!this fee ah.pissing my life!"
dont want tht to happen.
i mean.
im scared ill irritate you.
i may not be good in consoling,
but just want want you to know tht,
you can always like,
vent on me or smething ah.
as long as you wont be so moody.
yea?
i knw you wont give a darn bout wht i say even if you read ah.
but just thought you should know.
bye

2007-01-17T20:48:00.000+08:00

here i am.
rushing on my homework.
okaye shant talk much.
yar.
had cca fair.
shout like shit.
and now can say bye bye to my voice alr.
shish man!
sucks.
throat hurts like shit.
karma man.
cause i kept laughing on those who lost their voices.
haha

2007-01-16T22:37:00.001+08:00

even though we'll go in a crowd,
everytime your around,
and we play together,
everything seem to freeze,
except for us,
having fun,
doing our usual stupid stuffs.
well,
have you encountered tht before?
well i did.

2007-01-16T22:37:00.000+08:00

have you ever been caught in a dilemma?
one time when you dont know whats going on.
why it happened and all.
and you are being caught in between.
between a person you practically have strong feelings for,
and a person whom you care alot(as your sister).
if you were to pick one,
who would you choose?

please dont let me be in this situation lar.
sick of it.

you,
im tired lar.
you want to talk talk,
you dont want i wont force.
cause it seems tht everything i do is wrong.
im not saying im blaming you.
its im the stupid one.
never think before i act.
but everytime i say sorry,
you will still be angry.
either dont acknowledge my msg or tantrum.
so i guess,
i kinda am very tired.
but i really am sorry for being stupid ah.
i would never purposely hurt your feelings lar.
if you dont know tht by now, then i rly have nth to say ah.
but come on,
my feelings are obvious for you to see.
i know you know all these while.
but yours arent.
and im SLOW.
so i mean,
yalar.
okaye lar.
sorry for getting on your nerves lar.
a yar.
im sick of all these.
im tired.
bye.

/but my love has never end, and will not.(as yet)

2007-01-15T20:42:00.000+08:00

sorry for comparing.
sorry.
im just sick of the small quarrels.
can we dont?
and last thing i wanna say,
shes nothing compared to you.
NOTHING,
and i want you,
not her.

2007-01-14T19:48:00.000+08:00

if only you were here,
yeah if only.
if only you would show you care,
yeah if only.
if only you would show how much i mean to you,
yeah, if only again.
this feeling,
is not what i choose to have or go through.
just when your near me,
ill down on my knees for you.
we always go out in a group.
but when we have fun,
its like the whole world just pause,
except for us.
why?
my heart beats fast when your near me.
why?
its like not as if i know you for the firsttime or something.
these questions always run thorugh my head.
well till now,
its the same.
SHE.
she always shows me im so freaking important in her life.
you.
you dont say a word.
but i know your still the one i choose.
if it was her,
all those months wont be wasted.
get it?
well i dont.

2007-01-13T23:52:00.000+08:00

just came back from cousins place.
anyway went out with my grandma and cousins at bpp.

saw debbie and marion.

they gave a hell out of shock lar.

ANYWAYS,

yar.

then went back to cous house.

then all of us sitting together looking through old photographs.

haha.

darn funny.

memories memories.

haha.

shall post some of those.

haha.

2007-01-13T15:25:00.000+08:00

i dont know
i dont know what shes after
but shes so beautiful
such a beautiful disaster

but if i could hold on
through the tears and the laughters
lord would it be beautiful
or would it be sucha beautiful disaster

THEY ARE BACK FROM CAMP!!!
: )
some people ah come back only bully people.
eeyer.
I MISS CAI AND JASSY!
we were like so drama lar pls when we saw each other.
haha.
run towards each other.
HAHA.
then we talk talk talk.
then went coro.
yeah.
ANYWAYS,
ALFEE BUYING ME TAMAGUTCHI!
YAY!
WOOHOO!
DARN HAPPY LAR PLS!
AT LAST A TAMAGUTCHI!
erm anybody can sponsor for brother?
hee.
cause everytime i have some toy,
she'll have the same one.
hee.
HAPPY HAPPY!!
THANKS ALFEE!
LOVES.

2007-01-10T17:06:00.000+08:00

is this enough to show i 'DIDNT' miss you?
hahah. and im NOT cheekopek! i was shocked on wht you gave.
haha : ) faster come back

couldnt think of wht to put it with.you just gave me the shirt.so..... the OHSOSMART me, make it as my pillow cover. hahah. smart right? haha. the smell is gone alr lar pls. haha. joyce say "is EUPHORIA the perfume brand?NICE NICE." hahah. ANYWAYS, wht you doing now ah. i dont know. cai just called. hope your all doing fine. i know you all cant see this. but take care you guys! : ) try to have FUN!

/here i am, missing you again.

2007-01-08T21:34:00.000+08:00

came back today,
and saw my mum and dad at the living room.
wondering wht happened man.
then went to my room.
daddy called for me.
so went out.
then he was like i needa talk to you.
then he talk talk talk.
conclusion.
going abroad studying.
instead of aus,
going to some country.
i think Yemen or smth.
but yea.
doing this for my parents and myself.
so yea.
and its this year.
oh wells,
its my FUTURE we're talking bout here.
im willing to go.
and im kinda like excited?
haha

: )

alfee im gonna miss you too.
and i wont forget you like DUH.
you CRIED?!
hahah.
so funny.
why you cry.
siao zha bo lar you.
ANWYAYS,
yar.
hug ah...
hmm.
let me think bout it first.
hahha.

you are going for camp : (

2007-01-06T22:42:00.000+08:00

sorry,
i was being petty mans!
maybe wht cai said was right,
i talk before i think.
sighh.
dont know larr,
bye lar.